“You have a pony as a gift?”
At Hardel’s words, i nodded. He looked at me with a strange look, he rolled up his silver glasses and said.
“You look so unhappy about that, usually people would faint because they are too happy.”
“I’m happy! I’m really happy—but it’s too much.”
The pony is really, really nice. The first pony has a black body with a white hair look so shiny. That second pony with a white body and black fur is also so cool. And the third pony has red-brown color was is nice too.
All the three pony was so cool, i looked out and sighed. It because it’s look so expensive you can tell it when you see at the horse appearance.
“The duke wouldn’t become broke just because he buys a three pony.”
I looked up at him as i heard his words.
“Is that so?”
“You can collect all the ponies of all the empire if you wish. And there’s will no financial impact.”
Hardel showed his thumb and index finger tightly.
“Like this you can see any gaps between my finger?”
“There is no gap.”
At Hardel’s words, i laughed without i know. And i nodded.
“I feel a little relaxed after i heard that.”
Hardel pointed to the pages that open on my book.
“I think you have already been full educated about the financial condition of the Duke.”
“But………That doesn’t mean i can use it as my own finance.”
In my words Hardel smiled with a surprised face.
“Sometimes the way you speaks is beyond my expectations.”
“Is that so?”
“Sometimes it’s make me nervous.”
Hardel hardened his face.
“Why?”
Why is that make him anxious?
“I thought about your characteristic. There’s is a time when you should put aside your duty or responsibility and think about yourself first, from now on be sure to do so.”
I was a little blind but i nodded. And i asked what i was wondering.
“But, Sir.”
“Yeah?”
“I want to know about Wizard’s Tower.”
At that point, Hardel’s gaze turned to Emel who standing behind me and returned to me.
“It’s a gathering of a wizards.”
“I know that. By the way, my father told me not to go to near…….”
“Yeah, you should stay away from the Pagoda.”
“Why is that?”
“I can’t tell you.”
At that, i opened my mouth slightly and looked back. I met with Emel eyes and he smile. And i said.
“Emel.”
“Yes.”
“Get out.”
“Yes?”
“Can you give me some time with my teacher?”
“I refuse.”
At that point, i looked down for a while and looked up again carefully.
“What if it’s an order?”
In that sense, Emel said with a funny face.
“It’s my pleasure to listen your order, but i’ll have to refuse this one.”
I frowned and looked back. Hardel’s expression remind unchanged. I said with a sigh.
“Then just tell me about magic and wizards. Is that okay?”
At my question, Hardel began to explain without hesitated.
“Wizards use a mana to make impossible things become possible. You must have the talent to feel the mana. Wizards are not so rare in the empire, but they are not so common too.”
“Like a knight who’s like to write?”
Hardel smiled at my question.
“Yes, it is. Wizards are also a researchers who study along in different school. They do some research.”
“What they research?”
“Many things. Among them, mana, the source of their power, is a big study object. The source of this mana is called the gate of the demon.”
“Demon. The demon life’s?”
“Yes. If aura is force inside our world, mana is a heterogeneous force from the outside world. That’s why it’s out of physics. I believe that’s where the mana were come from.”
“What about magic? There are some magic spell?”
“There are some magic spells, and there are many magic spells you can use in daily life too . For example, there is a magic to keeps and ice still cold.”
“I see.”
It was amazing, and i want to see the wizard even just for once time, but they are dangerous.
“Are they in the capital?”
“A wizards? Yes, the capital is the most common place to see a wizard. So be more careful when you go to the capital.”
I was dissatisfied with the answer because he not telling me the reason, but i nodded.
After class, i headed to the stable with a light step. In spite of what happened, the gifts make me feel so happy. The pony was also so lovely, it was fun lo learning how to ride.
As always, i gave the horse a carrot while patting their neck. You must be very careful when you handle a horses, because they are is sensitive animals.
“If you have a back foot, you will get a serious injured.”
Emel told me several times. Slowly put a sat down on the horse stomach and saddle up. It was just the theory and i should do everything myself.
“You must not bite the curb tightly. Yes like this, good.”
I lightly stepped on the stirrup and climbed on the horse. I felt so tall that i felt good. I could have made the horse run.
“How is it? Am i standing upright?”
“Yes. That’s will be fine.”
Emel smiled and replied. I smile slightly and leaned forward. As a signal, the horse began to run lightly.
The racing field was wide and rough. Emel shouted from behind.
“Do not run too fast.”
“Yes!”
I circled large circles. Emel told me not to run to fast, but i couldn’t stand it because i wanted to run fast.
But falling from a horse is scary.
At that time, i heard a voice.
“Are you having fun?”
“Brother!”
Carl was standing behind the fence and i quickly drove the horse to get closer to where Carl stand.
“How is it? Do i ride it well now?”
“You barely out of the a beginner. What do you feel?”
“My tights and back is hurt.”
In my word Carl smiled faintly.
“You still far from being a pro.”
I asked him.
“Would you like ridding horse outside with me?”
“The more you used to it the more you get it.”
“I can go slowly.”
“No.”
Carl looked tough. I grumbled small with my mouth. Emel approaching Carl greeted him and grabbed the reins of my horse.
“I told you not to go out yet.”
“Still it’s okay if we go together, and……..”
As i find an excuse, Emel said with a firm voice “No.” And than i nodded.
“Okay.”
Then i saw Carl and said.
“Wait, i’ll come back to you soon.”
“Are you stop ridding?”
“Yeah, i want to talk to you, brother.”
Carl will be going to the Academy soon, so i wanted to be with him as much as i can. Emel reached out and lifted me down and said.
“When the two of you speaking. I will put the horse in.”
“You don’t escort her?”
At the blunt words of Carl, Emel said “Because there is a young master here.” I quickly got Carl’s hand. Carl looked at me and reached out and swung my riding hat.
“Brother!”
Shouting, i put back my hat on. But suddenly Carl dissappeard in front of my eyes.
“Brother?”
I looked around in amazement. The surroundings are plains, and Carl was not visible.
“Brother? Carl? Brother?”
“Waa—!”
“Huh—?”
I jumped on the floor and Carl laughed.
“No way, were you surprise?”
“How can you doing something like that?”
I squeezed my mouth, ask Carl with curiously.
“That’s it because you’re normal.”
“Worried. I’m worried.”
He gently took off my hat and stroke my head. I was worried about what i will came up.
“But brother.”
“Yes?”
“Do you know about wizards?”
Carl’s face hardened at that moment.
“What about those chicks?”
All of sudden the tone rose up. But i’m not scared because i know that’s not because of me, still it make me feel limp.
“Just, i was curious…….”
“No, i think it’s not the case, you should told me, you see a wizard around here?”
I shook my head. I knew nothing about the wizard.
“Do not too be so curious. They are a bad guys.”
I nodded, but it was just make me more curious.
Why? Are all wizards villains? Is they really bad people?
But since there are so many wizards in the capital, wouldn’t they walk in the street like a bad guys?
‘I’m curious!’
I’m really curious.
Can i find something if asking Hardel?
“Are you talking well?”
I stared at Emel who smile at me as he approaching.
Somehow what if i put aside Emel when i was with Hardel. Will he let me know something about wizards?
Emel touch my shoulders and said.
“You are staring to me too much, my Lady. Did i interrupted your time with the young master?”
“Oh, it’s not like that.”
I shook my head as i replied. Carl pulled my cheek and said.
“If you have something strange happen, you should immediately talk to me okay?”
“Yes.”
I nodded quietly.
I don’t want to worry people.
“I think you have done well.”
At Emel’s reckless words i turned to Emel. He looked at my eyes and smiled and pointed to the sky.
“It’s raining.”
“Uh……..”
Looking at the sky, the clear sky was become cloudy. Then the wind gets stronger. The damp wind rubbed my skin, and inside my body become cold.
“My lady?”
“Well, we should get in soon.”
I put more speed at my footstep spontaneously. Looking that Carl had a puzzled face and hugged me from behind.
“I am faster than you.”
“Uh…….”
I wrapped my arm around his neck and clasped really tightly. Then i feel a little bit reassuring in Carl arms. I glanced up at Carl. His red eyes saw me and saw the front again.
“Really, what should you do without me?”
As he sighed, i laughed and responded.
“I would go inside your luggage quietly, and follow you to the Academy.”
“I can do it like that.”
In my words, Carl answered energetically.
“Then, i can leave my luggage in the wagon’s luggage compartment and not open it for three days.”
At that point i blinked.
“That’s no……….”
I know it was just a joke.
“No what?”
“No, nothing.”
I just shook my head because i was worried for a second about the jokes. Carl asked me, “Why you don’t feel good?” he asked me the same question again “What’s going on?” Then arrive at the mansion and Carl drop me off. Emel said in a relaxed tone.
“It will pour it out soon. You should be careful when you going.”
“I should left before the storm.”
Carl looked at me with his tongue kicked. As he shook his head, he lightly poke my cheek and i looked at him.
“Brother?”
“Well, not bad.”
And he laughed faintly.
‘Oh, his smiley face.’
I smiled as i see his smiley face. Carl seemed wants to say something while he saw me, but than it dissappeard. Soon after, Annie came over.
“My lady, wash your hand and have a snack.”
“Huh!”
I was excited and held her hand and followed her. I glance at the outside the window, the sky looks become so dark and more darker.
Thunder, i’ll hit you……….
‘This house is wide, and there so many people here, so it will be fine.’
But it’s not okay at all!
When i lie down to sleep at night, the rain began to pour start with a thin thread as time passed the rain began to pouring hard. Flash! The shadows cast a thunder at the same time.
I crouched in the bed blanket.
The windows were scarier. Does the window shake like that? What if the glass breaks? Fragments fly away—
Scary—!!
‘Uh—!’
I crouch in the blanket. Every time i kicked my foot, the futon slipped.
‘It’s okay. It’s okay. Breath, breath.’
I could hear a my breathing sound like a broken flute from inside of the blanket.
When it will end?
When the rain will stop?
“Ah………”
A screamed out of my mouth And swallowed.
It’s okay, it’s fine, Estelle. Ok.
In the minds of self-healing, the thunder receded, and i was tired and fell asleep.
“Miss. Wake up.”
“Hmm…….”
Annie shook me gently.
“It’s not good to have sleep late at night Lady. Oh? Did you have a bad sleep last night because of the rain?”
Annie hand touched my eyes.
“I think so.”
I pretend that i don’t know and rub my eyes. Annie said “Do not rub it.” Soon she took a cold towel and covered it around my eyes.
‘It’s feel cool…….’
“Today the young master is going to the Academy.”
“Ah—!”
That’s right. Right!
I jumped out of the bed. Looking out of the window, it was still raining.
“You can prepare slowly. It’s not that late.”
Annie spoke softly and took my pajamas. This type of things is still awkward for me.
“It’s worth every day.”
Dressed the newly made clothes, Annie said with a proud face. I was ashamed and looked at my finger. The nodes bones are no visible now. The ribs don’t even show up again. The ringworm is gone and my height is taller than before.
Straightening your arms also creates a recess in your elbow. I can’t see the unsightly knee bones and now became a round knee.
‘Interesting.’
I pulled my cheeks too. Well, it’s soft.
‘I can understand why Carl always touch it.’
In new clothes i quickly left the room. Emel greeted me when i left.
“Miss, how have you been?”
“Yeah, did you sleep well?”
“Yes—than that, i didn’t think you sleep well?”
Said Emel looked at my face. I pressed my fingertips around my eyes and asked.
“This is looked that bad?”
“No, not so.”
“I think i have a nightmare because of the thunder last night.”
I glanced and lied. I felt tingling in my chest. Emel looked down at me for a while and said “Yes.”
“Today is the day brother is going back to the Academy. I’d better go see him off.”
After talking, i started walking down the hall.
“Do not run, Lady.”
Caught up behind, i turned my head back and nodded to Emel. But i can’t slow down and no delay than i walked as quickly as possible with a little speed going to the restaurant.”
“Brother!”
Carl looked back at me when i stepped into the restaurant. He stood firmly in a place. Carl asks with his arms open and folded again.
“Why?”
“It’s my first time seeing a school uniform! So it’s like that! You are wearing a school uniform because you’re going to school! Wow—!
I went round and round around Carl. Carl frowned and caught my chin. Suddenly, my jaw was caught and i looked at him.
“Why? What happen to your eyes?”
“Young master, you shouldn’t treat Lady that way.”
Emel grab Carl’s wrist and pulled it off from my chin. Carl says “Oh.” He saw his hand and then saw me.
“Are you hurt? Sorry.”
“I’m hurt but it’s okay. Because you are my only one brother.”
I said and put my hand on his waist, Carl looked at me and his hand reached out to my eyes. With a very light and gentle Carl touched my eyes and sighed down.
“It’s really hard.”
‘I think this side of brother good too.’
When i think about it, i was disgusted of my puffy eyes, so i dropped my shoulder and quickly woke up again.
“Brother, your school uniform is so cool.”
“Its stuffy.”
He pulled the tie. The gold straps on the jacket and the buttons with the craft work, all looked great in my eyes.
“Did you use tie to wear a school uniform?”
“Yes. The tie designated product with different colors for each grade. Why your eyes became like that?”
“Because of the thunder, i can’t sleep well………”
“Thunder? Why?”
Carl asked with a puzzled face and i had no words to answer. Carl asked.
“Is it because is so noisy?”
“Young master……….”
Emel called Carl with sigh, and Carl looked back to Emel. Emel smiled and said.
“Some people are afraid of a loud sounds.”
“Ah.”
Carl laughed and peek at me.
“Rabbit.”
“………”
I’m staring at Carl erratically and someone from behind suddenly pushed his head down. To me in this house the one who dare to do that to Carl is—
“Dad!”
I smiled and turned around. Dad stroke my head a few time and told Carl.
“Do not make fun of your sister.”
“I’m not making fun of her.”
“You did.”
As he said that, Dad hugged me. He stared at my face for a long time, so i explained to him first.
“This is because of the thunder yesterday…….”
“Yes.”
Dad calm ruby eyes did not show any emotion. Rather it was so relieved and i leaned on my dad.
“Don’t make any trouble when you are not in home.”
Wow, i’m stunned by dad cold reaction to brother who will going for a long time…….!
“I won’t.”
The answer seems to be no big deal to brother!
“Well, brother, have a safe journey. If you don’t mind i’ll go play to the academy.”
“It’s okay, you don’t have to come. No just don’t come.”
“But, still………..”
“Write me a letter instead.”
“Yes!”
I nodded and Carl said “Good.” As always after breakfast, everyone gathered on the porch to see Carl off.
My eyes are starting to burn as i think Carl is going. He was about in a similar age of me and he was the only one i can play with.
Now, i can’t see him until winter, and the tears began to flow.
“Please come home soon, please—“
Saying goodbye in tears, Carl saw me and shouted “Ha.” I blinked in amazement. Then i could see Carl laughing out of sight.
Wait, i’m crying seeing you off. Why are you laughing?
My fish eye got more sloppy as i looked at him, Carl yelled at me.
“Hahahaha, ah, really. Ha—“
He knelt on one knee. This is the first time i’ve looked down at Carl this way, so i opened my eyes. He reached out and wiped my tears and laughed.
“I will come home soon. Don’t crying.”
Tears came out again because it was a friendly voice from Carl.
“Really.”
He smiled back in trouble face and stroke my head lightly.
“Estelle Castiello, take care.”
Then Carl greeted father lightly and got on the carriage without hesitation. I followed the departing wagon a few steps and stopped.
“It’s raining. Let’s go in.”
Dad hugged me lightly, so i buried my face on dad’s shoulder. Dad settled down on the terrace while holding me.
The sound of falling rain on the parasol continued to be heard. There was a small jingle. But soon everything was quiet, so i lifted my head.
There was only me Dad and me on the terrace, and refreshment were on one table. Dad was staring at me while i was in his arms.
“Oh, it’s heavy, sorry-hyak?”
As soon as i tried to descend, Dad silently pulled me back, letting me sit on Dad’s leg.
‘What……..’
I noticed the red eyes staring at me.
“Would you like to make some friend?”
At Dad’s words, i was surprised and blinked.
“Yes?”
“You look sad because Carl go. Do you need someone to play with?”
Friend………!
The mood suddenly became brighter, and then it soon became low again.
“Why?”
“Yes?”
“Don’t you like to play with a friends?”
“It’s must be a chosen child who would be my friend. If is that way, no matter what i say, they will listening to my story and laughing at my jokes even they don’t want do it. I don’t like it.”
“You right.”
Dad raised his hands and started stroking my hair. From head to back, as if stroking to stabilize the beast.
“Dad………”
“Huh?”
“That, i mean earlier.”
As i slowed down, Dad nodded as if ask me to keep talking. I hesitated because i didn’t know what to ask.
“Brother, he laughed.”
“Ah.”
Dad grinned faintly. Then looked away for a while and saw me again.
“You are still young and i don’t want to tell you everything about Castiello yet.”
It seemed he choose the word carefully.
“The old family doesn’t have just a bright side.”
At that, i looked at my father and shook my head.
“Because i’m half……..?”
I wish i was as strong as the other Castiello, no escort needed, i can riding horse with my brother and learning the sword, even the eyes—
Dad lifted my chin lightly. The red eyes seemed a bit angry.
“It’s not half. You are Castiello.”
Then dad frowned and sighed again.
“We have a hard time to liking humans. Then same as the humans.”
“Because they afraid of Castiello? But i’m not…………”
“That’s the proof that you are Castiello.”
I laughed at it. Dad smiled faintly.
“So it’s almost impossible for us to find our favorite partner.”
“………I see……..”
“Even is my partner likes me, i’m not so happy about that.”
Dad picked up a cookie and handed it to me. I carefully accepted the big round cookies with both hands. It was my favorite cookie with lots of nuts and chocolate chips.
“But you are different.”
“Because i am are mixed.”
“Yes.”
So he answered and watched me eat cookies. Dad quietly swept away the crumbs in my mouth.
“So is it the first time for Carl to like someone or someone like him.”
At that, i opened my eyes and looked at Dad. After all, dad looks so tired. He stroke my head and stroke it as usual.
“It’s hard. I don’t know where to talk and where no to talk.”
Dad said in a tone that he didn’t know if he was good for telling more stories. I quickly put the rest of the cookie in my mouth and said.
“I’m glad you tell me. Well, at least i know that brother didn’t make fun at me.”
I laughed and hugged Dad’s neck.
“I wouldn’t have let go first.”
Dad talked quietly and patted my back. I was excited to hear the secret story about Castiello.
At the same time, question were raised in my mind.
Who is the person that father liked?
Who is Carl mother? What kind of person is she? Wouldn’t Carl like her too?
Several question went round and round.
I’ll ask you one by one later.
When i asked with seriously, dad seemed like to answer it. But i don’t want to ask it now because it’s a story dad don’t want to talk about yet.
Also thanks for not asking me why i don’t like rain or why i scared of the thunder.
I got up and said on the spot.
“Can i drink tea?”
Dad handed me a mug without a word.
What? Do i should keep eating and drinking on Dad’s laps? Can i stay still?
As i glanced at it, Dad grabbed my waist silently and turned it forward so i can face the table.
Nevertheless this kind of feeling i’m still not adapted yet.
‘I got a lot heavier, how do you treat me like a rag doll.
In the end, i sat on Dad’s lap and ate and drank. I politely greeted him and went back to class.
After a dance class and musical instrument class, it’s Hardel class.
It’s was also my favorite class.
Hardel came in just in time and sitting in front of my desk. I got an ominous sound when i got my homework out on my desk.
Shoooo~
The rain was getting stronger. The sound went into my whole body. What if thunder and lightning strike during class?
“My Lady.”
Hardel called me and put his hand on my forehead. Meanwhile my forehead was moistened with cold sweat.
“Are you okay?”
“Yes, yes, yes.”
“Please just answer me once and and be honest.”
Tshaaaa—
I heard thunder from a far and i swallowed my breath.
Actually i’m not okay at all.
“Well, thunder…….I’m scared……..”
My voice trembles without i know. Hardel looked up. Do you have anything to talk with Emel?
Maybe you think i’m stupid because i’m afraid of the thunder.
I know this is just a natural phenomenon.
“I’m sorry, but i should cancel this class.”
I heard a dad’s voice with a sweet tone and open door. I was so surprise.
“Dad?”
“Duke.”
Hardel stepped back and greeted politely.
“Come here, Estelle.”
Dad called me with one arm open and kicked the chair, i woke up as if i was hanging on to it. Dad still carrying me with a careless move. But now there was no anxiety. I knew my dad wold never drop me.
We came out to the hallway, the hallway had large windows but dad didn’t help me to cover the sound of thunder.
My gasping sound was so loud that i tried to breathing but it didn’t go well.
Dad took a quick step. We went up a few steps and went upstairs, into a room that i hadn’t been in before because it was locked.
‘It’s so quiet……….and it’s so dark…….’
There was no windows in the room, and the painting were hanging instead. It was like a room for painting. And the paintings were illuminated by soft lights.
When dad closed the door, no sound was heard. It was like entering a museum.
“Why there are no windows?”
“Because the room is used to preserve picture and old books.”
“Ah.”
So that a reason why the lighting is dim. I knew, the color of the painting will faded when it lighted with bright light.
‘And this place…….’
The ceiling was also high. I heard ventilation is important too, how do you do it? Something seemed to be installed near the ceiling.
There was no smell of dust.
We slowly walked through the pictures room. There was no sound due to the soft carpet under my feet. The room was connected to another room and went to the last room, there’s a bedroom.
“This is a bed?”
Why is there a bed like this?
“I prepare it like this.”
Said dad, he sat in the bed and beckoned to me. I start to walked up and sat down in the bed. The bed was smells good.
“Prepare?”
“If you can’t sleep because of the thunder, is it okay here?”
“………..”
I open my mouth and see my dad. “Can’t you?” he asked. I shook my head.
“No, that’s fine as long as i can’t hear it.”
“If so.”
My dad got up and held the key in my hand.
‘It’s so huge.’
The keys were bigger and heavier than my palms.
“This is the key to this room, you can go now and change your clothes to the pajamas and ask Annie to go.”
“Is Annie can’t coming in here?”
“Yes.”
‘It’s like that……..’
If you think about it, it’s a space where valuables things are stored, so you can’t come in as you please. I held the key and nodded.
“Thank you.”
I bowed and left the room. Get out of the room Emel was already waited.
‘Since when did he follow?’
“Did you talked well?”
“Yes.”
As i nodded, Emel smiled and start to carrying me. I being carried a lot today.
“If you afraid of thunder, you can hug me if you want.”
I looked at the keys in my hand. And suddenly something scary come—
Flashing.
“Uh—!”
I flung at lighting and Emel gave strength to his arm. Lighting is scary, but what’s scarier is what’s following it.
Whoo—
At that time, Emel blows my ears.
“What?!”
I was embarrassed and twisted my body to avoid the winds blow.
“E,e,e, Emel!!”
“Ahahaha, are you surprised?”
“What are you doing?!”
My voice went up on my own.
“It’s a joke.”
“That’s why—“
Emel’s caramel eyes smiled. He was so slim that i can kicked his side lightly with my legs.
“Ah—Lady, you just like a young master.”
“It’s because you are messing around.”
“That why. I will reflect it.”
As he speaking he let me down.
‘What? We already here?’
Oh, i didn’t know there was a thunder. I’m so surprised.
I looked up at Emel and he was still smiling.
‘I will not say thank you.’
He was teased me! I said inside my mind and quickly got into the room. Annie seemed surprised i come back earlier than expected, than i explained everything to her.
She changes me into pajamas and took me to the painting room.
Carefully inserting the key into the large keyhole and turning it makes a small click sound. It would be hard to turn it around, but it was oiled well.
When i opened and closed the door, the door sounded automatically locked.
I closing the door and come into the room.
‘Am i sleeping here alone……..?’
The picture that was looked pretty before suddenly looks scary and i forgot to bring the doll. I regretted and ran to the bedroom.
“Fall down.”
“Uh?”
I was surprised and stopped at the entrance of the bedroom. Dad sat in a chair in the bedroom. One of his hand held a small book.
“Dad……..?”
Dad pointed to bed silently. I walked slowly to the bed.
‘Will you stay until i fell asleep…….?’
When i see my father with faint expectations, he gets up from his chair and puts the book on the bookshelf.
‘Ah……..’
So you wait until i came. However, dad did no go out and just came into the bed.
“Dad?!”
I surprised and dad stopped moving.
“Why?”
“That—“
“Are you worried too?”
“Yes?”
“I will press you while i sleep…….”
Hmmmm, dad had a distressed face and that made me smile. It’s not like i was a dog, i will not death just because getting i’m pressed.
“Are we sleeping together?”
“If you want.”
“Yes, i want it!”
I quickly moved away and left my side. My mouth went up. Laughter does not stop.
I grabbed my father’s sleeves who lying next to me.
‘Oh, now it looks like pajamas. Soft texture…..i thought it was a just black shirt……’
No thunder, no lighting, no rain.
And my father is lying next to me.
I feels like a deep rabbit oyster. Very cozy and safe.
I was so relieved that i will not sleeping like last night, soon after that i fell asleep.
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